Its always hard to let go..at least for me it is..God has really had to work with me on this issue..I'm getting better.A few things that we have had to let go of and trust God at this being His will have been especially hard as it involves children. The first was letting go of the first baby girl who tugged at our hearts.She has Downs Syndrome and I fell in love with her the min my eyes saw her precious little face.I prayed for weeks .. and even posted her picture on our kitchen cabinet for all to see..this usually gives dad time to fall in love too.We prayed and fasted,and trusted Gods will for her and for our family.Sadly she wasn't meant to be our daughter...Rick never felt it..so we let her go..She was one who started the journey to our daughter with DS...I checked her status often and felt in my heart..because she is a baby she will find her family quickly.Her grant money went up,I praised God for that.Week after week.I checked on sweet Margret....weeks turned to months as she waited and I couldn't understand...like so many others,why she waited. Yesterday,I awoke to the most disturbing news..it brought me to my knees as I read Margret lost her battle...she died !!! She died waiting for a mommy and daddy..she died in a crib unloved .. unvalued .. why ???? Because she had Downs Syndrome..how heart breaking...how sad..she was tossed away because she had a extra chromosome...something that made her special..something that made her unique...yet she was tossed aside because of it..because people just cant see..they didn't see how WONDERFULLY you were made sweet Margret..
I did ! XXXOOO
Hi, Just started following your blog when it joined onto the RR page. Just wondering if the little girl--Kenndi is supposed to be listed under available girls in the DS catagory on Reece's Rainbow. It looks like the same child as you are adopting.
ReplyDeleteThat is loss number 2..I havent posted about it yet..Yes she is available...she is listed on RR and the agency who has her file is CHI...She is so precious...sadly we will not be able to move forward with her adoption...We know and trust God has a plan for sweet Kennedi !!!
ReplyDeleteThis story really touched me and brought lots of tears to my heart and eyes. You both have been a real miracle to God and to those children that need someone to call mom and dad. I'm sad that poor baby Margret passed on bt I look at it this way...she will now always have a father that she can look up to and be happy knowing that she will not be looked down at any longer. She is a beautiful little girl and I'm sorry to see that she couldn't go home and smile knowing that someone else besides yo was happy for a miracle.....
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